Today is 8th January. 2 more days to releasing of Os results.
Currently feeling super hyper nervous.
Hasn't been blog a proper post for dk how long .
Life isn't great as what I tot it will.
As usual, things just don't fucking go the way we wanted.
Be it life, things and LOVE.
I've start working @ U2me since 1stDec, gonna change job after I got back my results.
I told myself, you don't have to be afraid of your results. Is just ite, poly or nowhere to go. So simple as ABC. But on other hand, I'm lost. Even though I haven't got back my results.
Sigh , if life has a replay button, I will press for no matter what cost .
When memories flash back , I realized that I took things for granted.
Yes, I admit that I do take things for granted whenever I got the things that I wanted. But isn't everyone do the same things?
I know is a bad, I'm trying to treasure everything that is around me. I'm really trying.
Recently , the new shopping mall is opened ; Nex .
Went to work at there as our company has one new outlet over there.
Yes, there are quite of numbers of hunks compare to the Plaza Sing's outlets.
I still rmb that when Connie told me that there is a shuai ge working @ Xcraft.
So , i went to see , yes. indeed. He is such a cutee and a lil bit shuai. lOL
So , there was once, we doesn't not have small notes so my colleague asked me to go Xcraft and exchanged with a larger notes. So I went there and scan him awhile.
I don't know is this consider lucky or what, our cashier still not enough smaller notes, so I've to go in again, Haha. in the end , I went in for the total of three times. Hahaha , The feeling is so fucking shiok . LOL.
I went to PlazaSing for the next day , is kinda , awww. Sad.
So I decided to ask Connie to help me take his number, is kinda bold but . I'm like having crush on him. Ohoh , I got his number. But surprisingly I wasn't as excited as ytd .
As time passes by and I'm going to work @ nex for quite a number of days, I'm pretty sure that I'm in love with him. I still rmb the first time we have a proper talk in face to face is when, I text-ed him and asked him wanna go smoke tgt . Thats was very silly , i know. But I just can't control my heart when he took my heart.
As usual, we smoke tgt ,although I'm the one who asked him, but I don't care.
Things just don't go smoothly. When I confessed my feelings to him, he said , he won't want to have girlf . I don't know whether is this an excuses to reject me or isst because of his past. I don't know , I still rmb i teared when i saw his reply.
To cut it short, today , now . I still love him, thou isn't as strong as the first day . But I still hope that we can be an item in the future. I know that I can definitely love him as much as the first day when disappointment doesn't appear.
Well, just now , i went to his ex blog and I went to see the last few mths of her blog's post. Wah ! tears dropped , heartache , I saw his name. Although I know he is her ex but I just .. Jealously took over me. Hais.
Maybe what sis said was right , He wasn't a good guy .
Maybe what my colleague said was right, he is a guy that can't go far.
I know , deep in my heart, I clearly knows that he isn't the one.
But, I still love him. hais.
What's wrong w me .
I love you . LWJ.
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